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September 20, 2007
Yesterday was my first visit to the radiologist.
Since my last chemo treatment on the 12th I've been plagued with psoriasis. The oncologist told me it would
come back, but I had no idea it would come back with such a vengeance! After being mild for so many years, it
is inflamed, itching, and feels almost alive.
Once, I remember one of the popular healers of the day say that the disease of psoriasis was a metaphor for
one who felt the need to "armor" oneself from the hurts of the world; trying to be more "thick skinned" and
protective of self. That felt right to me at the time and it feels right now.
Yesterday was my first visit to the radiologist.
Since my last chemo treatment on the 12th I've been plagued with psoriasis. The oncologist told me it would
come back, but I had no idea it would come back with such a vengeance! After being mild for so many years, it
is inflamed, itching, and feels almost alive.
Once, I remember one of the popular healers of the day say that the disease of psoriasis was a metaphor for
one who felt the need to "armor" oneself from the hurts of the world; trying to be more "thick skinned" and
protective of self. That felt right to me at the time and it feels right now.
September 26, 2007
Today I go back to the radiology department for a cat scan. My appointment is at 2 pm so I will probably be
there at the Aries full Moon at 2:46 pm. Funny, that full Moon is right on my natal Libra Moon opposition Aries
Saturn and in the same houses. Full Moons bring closure to things; wonder what I could close now? I'd like to
close my fear and any negativity concerning this radiation business. I will concentrate on that during this visit
and bless the fact that I'm so fortunate to be able to even have this treatment.
In my Solar Return chart, the full Moon falls on Mars; another hit!
Today I go back to the radiology department for a cat scan. My appointment is at 2 pm so I will probably be
there at the Aries full Moon at 2:46 pm. Funny, that full Moon is right on my natal Libra Moon opposition Aries
Saturn and in the same houses. Full Moons bring closure to things; wonder what I could close now? I'd like to
close my fear and any negativity concerning this radiation business. I will concentrate on that during this visit
and bless the fact that I'm so fortunate to be able to even have this treatment.
In my Solar Return chart, the full Moon falls on Mars; another hit!
September 28, 2007
On the right are some dates not listed on the Solar Return chart.
Radiation is scheduled to start the week of the 15th of October.
On the right are some dates not listed on the Solar Return chart.
Radiation is scheduled to start the week of the 15th of October.
October 7, 2007
Nothing really new to say except that yesterday the transiting
Sun squared SR Chiron and I felt totally normal. I woke up
early, cleaned house, and had lots of energy. I have to say that
I have been watching my carb intake for the past few days.
I take my sugar count in the morning as a guideline.
Nothing really new to say except that yesterday the transiting
Sun squared SR Chiron and I felt totally normal. I woke up
early, cleaned house, and had lots of energy. I have to say that
I have been watching my carb intake for the past few days.
I take my sugar count in the morning as a guideline.
The other thing that happened today was that an old friend that I haven't been in touch with for about 14 years
e-mailed me. What a happy surprise! That came on Sun square SR Neptune. However, in my natal chart,
Neptune is square the nodes so many of my family and friends are part of Neptune's blessings.
e-mailed me. What a happy surprise! That came on Sun square SR Neptune. However, in my natal chart,
Neptune is square the nodes so many of my family and friends are part of Neptune's blessings.
October 20, 2007
Yesterday completed my fourth radiation treatment started on Tuesday the 16th. I only have 29 more to go...
So far, I feel fine.
I joined CURVES on Tuesday as my oncologist told me to get more exercise equivalent to walking 2 miles a
day, which is 40 minutes for me.
The old friend that I met up with online not only is a brilliant astrologer and metaphysician, but a homeopathist
too! When he found out that I had cancer, he sent me a formula that will help me with the healing. I can't find
all the remedies online, but I will keep looking. The U. S. is not as hip as UK when it comes to complementary
medicine. I have another M.D. friend who is doing something about this.
Meanwhile, I'm using the dinosaur treatment for breast cancer, or at least it may be regarded as such in a few
years. It doesn't make much sense to treat a poison with another poison, but it is the only thing that seems to
work today and, after all, isn't that the basic theory of homeopathy; treat like with like?
Yesterday completed my fourth radiation treatment started on Tuesday the 16th. I only have 29 more to go...
So far, I feel fine.
I joined CURVES on Tuesday as my oncologist told me to get more exercise equivalent to walking 2 miles a
day, which is 40 minutes for me.
The old friend that I met up with online not only is a brilliant astrologer and metaphysician, but a homeopathist
too! When he found out that I had cancer, he sent me a formula that will help me with the healing. I can't find
all the remedies online, but I will keep looking. The U. S. is not as hip as UK when it comes to complementary
medicine. I have another M.D. friend who is doing something about this.
Meanwhile, I'm using the dinosaur treatment for breast cancer, or at least it may be regarded as such in a few
years. It doesn't make much sense to treat a poison with another poison, but it is the only thing that seems to
work today and, after all, isn't that the basic theory of homeopathy; treat like with like?
October 25, 2007
Here's a good one; Tuesday, October 23rd, the big ole radiation machine broke down. They had a repair
person come and fix it Tuesday night, but it broke down again yesterday morning so everything was running
late when I came in for my 11:30 am appointment. I was asked to come in this morning (Thursday) at 10 am
instead of the usual time; ditto tomorrow.
As I was getting my radiation treatment and visualizing my usual meditation (asking Michael the Archangel to direct those
rays to the right places with his mighty sword), my mind just wandered a bit as to why, how, and how much this big ole
machine breaks down and if it was REALLY fixed now? I HAVE to learn to be more positive and T R U S T !
Here's a good one; Tuesday, October 23rd, the big ole radiation machine broke down. They had a repair
person come and fix it Tuesday night, but it broke down again yesterday morning so everything was running
late when I came in for my 11:30 am appointment. I was asked to come in this morning (Thursday) at 10 am
instead of the usual time; ditto tomorrow.
As I was getting my radiation treatment and visualizing my usual meditation (asking Michael the Archangel to direct those
rays to the right places with his mighty sword), my mind just wandered a bit as to why, how, and how much this big ole
machine breaks down and if it was REALLY fixed now? I HAVE to learn to be more positive and T R U S T !
November 12, 2007
I am halfway through the radiation treatments and haven't written much because not much has been
happening. <yawn> I only missed one radiation treatment since I last wrote because, BESSIE, the big ole
radiation machine broke down AGAIN and everyone had to wait a day. I'm not really afraid of the machine; I've
simply decided to trust and forgetaboutit!
I'm not too sore yet although I'm a bit more red on the left side than the right. I love the lotion that I bought to
use directly after the radiation treatment. It's a bit expensive, but well worth it! Go to Alray site:
They also have a deodorant for radiation patients that has no metallics in it. I'm going to order
that too.
My daughter asked me the other day if I felt like I still had cancer. (She's a deep one.) I thought a moment and
then said, "No, I don't." She said, "That's a real good sign, Mom!" I think she's right!
I am halfway through the radiation treatments and haven't written much because not much has been
happening. <yawn> I only missed one radiation treatment since I last wrote because, BESSIE, the big ole
radiation machine broke down AGAIN and everyone had to wait a day. I'm not really afraid of the machine; I've
simply decided to trust and forgetaboutit!
I'm not too sore yet although I'm a bit more red on the left side than the right. I love the lotion that I bought to
use directly after the radiation treatment. It's a bit expensive, but well worth it! Go to Alray site:
They also have a deodorant for radiation patients that has no metallics in it. I'm going to order
that too.
My daughter asked me the other day if I felt like I still had cancer. (She's a deep one.) I thought a moment and
then said, "No, I don't." She said, "That's a real good sign, Mom!" I think she's right!
November 14, 2007
I may not still have cancer, but last night I think I got radiation poisoning. For the first time I was burning hot
over the mastectomy area, feeling nauseated, and cold sweaty. I lay in the contour chair for about an hour;
then went to bed. I didn't quite make it before I threw up a couple of times. I used a wash cloth soaked in ice
water (with a teaspoon of cidar vinegar) on the burn, even though the radiologist told me I shouldn't; the
burning finally went away. Doctor said that the acid of the vinegar would probably not be good for me. I don't
usually disregard a Doctor's advice, but I had been doing that for years for sunburn and I had used it 10 years
before when I had a bad grease burn on my foot rather than have it treated at the hospital. Some things Mom
just knows best! This morning I feel better.
I noted that the transiting Sun at 22 degrees Scorpio is squaring my solar return Neptune. Also, transiting Mars
at 12 degrees Cancer is hitting my solar return venus/mercury conjunction. ho hum
I may not still have cancer, but last night I think I got radiation poisoning. For the first time I was burning hot
over the mastectomy area, feeling nauseated, and cold sweaty. I lay in the contour chair for about an hour;
then went to bed. I didn't quite make it before I threw up a couple of times. I used a wash cloth soaked in ice
water (with a teaspoon of cidar vinegar) on the burn, even though the radiologist told me I shouldn't; the
burning finally went away. Doctor said that the acid of the vinegar would probably not be good for me. I don't
usually disregard a Doctor's advice, but I had been doing that for years for sunburn and I had used it 10 years
before when I had a bad grease burn on my foot rather than have it treated at the hospital. Some things Mom
just knows best! This morning I feel better.
I noted that the transiting Sun at 22 degrees Scorpio is squaring my solar return Neptune. Also, transiting Mars
at 12 degrees Cancer is hitting my solar return venus/mercury conjunction. ho hum
November 21, 2007
Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I have so much to be thankful for! Today I got a new hat in the mail from my
favorite crochet lady on Ebay. It's a Rasta hat! I'll be growin' the dreadlocks as soon as I can; LOL. No more
radiation until Monday. Thank goodness; I'm a done turkey! How do you like my Rasta hat?
It's much more colorful in person. I don't think I'm ever going to take it off until the locks
grow in. I'm feeling good and I'm taking pain meds once a day to make sure I stay that
way.
Don't forget to look at the sky tonight around 8:44 pm CST. That's 9:44 pm EST
and tomorrow the 22nd in Iraq at 6:44 am. See Tonight's Sky (November 21, 2007)
Keep gratefulness foremost in your heart this weekend. Look around you and truly see
your blessings. Give thanks. May God, however you may call God, bless us all.
Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I have so much to be thankful for! Today I got a new hat in the mail from my
favorite crochet lady on Ebay. It's a Rasta hat! I'll be growin' the dreadlocks as soon as I can; LOL. No more
radiation until Monday. Thank goodness; I'm a done turkey! How do you like my Rasta hat?
It's much more colorful in person. I don't think I'm ever going to take it off until the locks
grow in. I'm feeling good and I'm taking pain meds once a day to make sure I stay that
way.
Don't forget to look at the sky tonight around 8:44 pm CST. That's 9:44 pm EST
and tomorrow the 22nd in Iraq at 6:44 am. See Tonight's Sky (November 21, 2007)
Keep gratefulness foremost in your heart this weekend. Look around you and truly see
your blessings. Give thanks. May God, however you may call God, bless us all.
November 23, 2007
Today I'm posting the LAST notes on my
solar return chart concerning cancer and
cancer treatment. Next week I expect to
finish the radiation normal treatments. The
first week in December should be the last five
"booster" treatments which concentrate solely on the incision area. I would expect the weekend of December
7th to be rough, but I'll be so glad to have it over with, I believe I can handle it!
On December 9th, transiting Sun conjuncts SRJupiter and opposes SR Mercury. The very beginning of my
treatment was exactly 6 months ago with the mastectomy on June 6, 2007. The transiting Sun was then
conjunct SRMercury and opposition SR Jupiter. Anyone who has any doubts if Solar Returns WORK or not,
may rest assured that they do. I was not in control of any of this. Astrology works! It is one of our gifts from a
loving Father. I believe this with my whole heart. This will be my last post until the treatment is over.
Today I'm posting the LAST notes on my
solar return chart concerning cancer and
cancer treatment. Next week I expect to
finish the radiation normal treatments. The
first week in December should be the last five
"booster" treatments which concentrate solely on the incision area. I would expect the weekend of December
7th to be rough, but I'll be so glad to have it over with, I believe I can handle it!
On December 9th, transiting Sun conjuncts SRJupiter and opposes SR Mercury. The very beginning of my
treatment was exactly 6 months ago with the mastectomy on June 6, 2007. The transiting Sun was then
conjunct SRMercury and opposition SR Jupiter. Anyone who has any doubts if Solar Returns WORK or not,
may rest assured that they do. I was not in control of any of this. Astrology works! It is one of our gifts from a
loving Father. I believe this with my whole heart. This will be my last post until the treatment is over.
December 5, 2007
I spoke too soon. I haven't had a radiation treatment since November 21st when the transiting Sun opposed my
natal Sun. After that, the pain became too great and the skin was really burned. So, I've been on a little hiatus.
I will start radiation again on Monday the 10th with four regular treatments and 5 booster treatments. If all goes
well, I'll be done on the 20th of December.
It's really good to know that one can take a break from radiation if it becomes too difficult.
Also, ít's interesting that his whole treatment started with transiting Sun hitting SR Mercury opposite Jupiter.
Now the transiting Sun is hitting SR Jupiter opposite Mercury this weekend into Monday. I suppose I could
have been done by this date and it would have worked out perfectly by Solar Return charting. But, it's
interesting that it will be working out perfectly with my own natal chart. We shall see.
I spoke too soon. I haven't had a radiation treatment since November 21st when the transiting Sun opposed my
natal Sun. After that, the pain became too great and the skin was really burned. So, I've been on a little hiatus.
I will start radiation again on Monday the 10th with four regular treatments and 5 booster treatments. If all goes
well, I'll be done on the 20th of December.
It's really good to know that one can take a break from radiation if it becomes too difficult.
Also, ít's interesting that his whole treatment started with transiting Sun hitting SR Mercury opposite Jupiter.
Now the transiting Sun is hitting SR Jupiter opposite Mercury this weekend into Monday. I suppose I could
have been done by this date and it would have worked out perfectly by Solar Return charting. But, it's
interesting that it will be working out perfectly with my own natal chart. We shall see.
December 20, 2007
At last writing I mentioned that today is the last of my treatments AND that the timing was perfect with my own
natal chart. Today, Pluto is exactly transiting my natal Sun by quincunx from the 12th house for the 3rd and
last time. Pluto indicates total transformation and death/rebirth among other things. As Pluto has been
transiting back and forth over this spot since March 2006, it has formed a YOD with my Pluto sextile Sun and
all of this from the position of the Galactic Center in Sagittarius. Ye gods, I feel as if I should be spouting
amazing pronouncements, but NO, I don't seem to be any smarter or definite about anything profound.
I'm still me. But, I am wiser I think; I'm happier too. I'm letting my hair stay white in celebration of those facts. I
thank and Bless the Universe for this experience and I pray that I continue to grow in appreciation of this
wonderful and totally awesome world. IT'S OVER!
At last writing I mentioned that today is the last of my treatments AND that the timing was perfect with my own
natal chart. Today, Pluto is exactly transiting my natal Sun by quincunx from the 12th house for the 3rd and
last time. Pluto indicates total transformation and death/rebirth among other things. As Pluto has been
transiting back and forth over this spot since March 2006, it has formed a YOD with my Pluto sextile Sun and
all of this from the position of the Galactic Center in Sagittarius. Ye gods, I feel as if I should be spouting
amazing pronouncements, but NO, I don't seem to be any smarter or definite about anything profound.
I'm still me. But, I am wiser I think; I'm happier too. I'm letting my hair stay white in celebration of those facts. I
thank and Bless the Universe for this experience and I pray that I continue to grow in appreciation of this
wonderful and totally awesome world. IT'S OVER!
January 21, 2008
I wrote above that Pluto had transited my Sun for the 3rd and last time. Actually, it will transit my Sun again in
August and for the last time in October, 2008. That's the problem with Pluto; he hits, and hits, and hits and hits...
I wrote above that Pluto had transited my Sun for the 3rd and last time. Actually, it will transit my Sun again in
August and for the last time in October, 2008. That's the problem with Pluto; he hits, and hits, and hits and hits...
| Radiation: Anatomy of a Solar Return |
June 16, 2008
After reading all these pages again while trying to put together my battered website, I remember my ordeal last year. It
made me appreciate my life and all life more. All in all, it was a good experience and I learned a lot from it.
At any point, I was not afraid and that made it easier. I send good thoughts and prayers out to all cancer patients.
After reading all these pages again while trying to put together my battered website, I remember my ordeal last year. It
made me appreciate my life and all life more. All in all, it was a good experience and I learned a lot from it.
At any point, I was not afraid and that made it easier. I send good thoughts and prayers out to all cancer patients.
